I never knew what it’s like to have someone who is actually here for me.. All my life I’ve just been used. Everyone uses me.. Even when I was in elementary. I was friends with a lot of guys.. So girls became my friend just so that they could hang out with the guy that they like. I don’t see why no one will be friends with me to be friends with me.. What’s wrong with me? What did I do to deserve to be used like i’m some kind of table. I’m only there when you need me. But when you don’t, I don’t exist to anyone. What did I do to deserve to be treated like this? I don’t understand. I didn’t do anything to them. I didn’t do anything to hurt them. Why do they hurt me? I just wish that I had just 1 real friend. Is that really too much to ask for? Just one really friend who is there for me and who I’m there for too? All I want is 1 real friend. Just 1. One that won’t use me for their own selfishness. Someone hwho wants to be friends with me for me.